Thursday, February 19, 2009
2:07 PM
i stayed up all night.
thinking through my worries and fears.
i watched myself go through various paths.
i was reflecting hard. from the people i've met, to the ones i have let down.
here i am in self pity.
thinking that i could have done much more. or wouldnt have done certain.
what am i left with at the end of this day?
i am confused, i am depressed. i am lost. i am helpless.
who will come to save my day?
i am fearful now, of losing the ones i never treasured in the past.
the ones who helped me beyond their limits.
i am a jerk. i am a bastard.
and i am only human.
god drowned me in a pool of regret.
is this my karma?
i shouldn't have turned my back against this world. i shouldn't have fought so hard for my own feelings. i should have looked around me, and notice the ones who were there with me.
i am nothing. i have nothing.
i sold my soul to the devil.
this life is a living hell.
